I see you’ve come to haunt me again. Why? These are supposed to be joyful moments, spent with my newest little love. Yet, here you are; bringing clouds of sadness to my sunny day. As I look into my baby’s eyes, I watch my tears drop onto her cheeks. I’m holding the world in my arms while you fill my head with thoughts of emptiness. At 2 am, I lie awake. The baby is crying and I feel you well up inside me. Anxiety; it’s all I feel as I try to calm my sweet girl to no  ...